The Cave

I’m not gonna stick around
To find out I was right
You exposed your red flags
So I waved my white

I’ve been trying to justify
The out of site and out of mind
But I can’t leave the fear of being made a fool
Behind

I’m not as afraid
Of being hurt as losing time
‘Cause I can get a band-aid
But minutes I can’t buy

I’ve been burned enough by those who’d
“Never hurt” me
Now I’d rather wonder “what if?”
Than be searching for the

Ice, ice baby
For the ice, ice baby

Is it cold to cut you off
Before the poison starts to spread
I can take the heat if you hold onto
Your resentment

Frigid is the heart that’s healing
It takes a lot to thaw out
One wrong move on your part
Is what gotcha locked out

I’ve been burned enough by those who’d
“Never hurt” me
Now I’d rather wonder “what if?”
Than be searching for the

Ice, ice, baby
For the ice, ice baby

Am I made of ice, ice, maybe
It’s the ice, ice that preserves me
Or is it the ice, ice that burns me
Ice, ice baby

Doing all I can to choke it down
My prophecy to wear a broken crown
Pacing these halls with a goblet of poison in one hand, why is blood on the other?

Echoes have been haunting me
Is this real or am I in a dream
Waltzing with memories, laughing with family, when did I last see my brothers?

It feels just like yesterday
Shame and church every Sunday
Have I forgotten how to pray?
Would it spare me anyway

At my dead end
(I’ll keep wishing for my)
For my dead end
(Chance to be free
Of the grief that has haunted me)

Do you know that’s why I never call
I hoped my silence might just spare you all
From the truth about your highchair tyrant who won’t love you more than his bible…

Or the power the Our Father has
To absolve his trespasses
I’ll never be free of the curse he cast on me while he believes he’s forgiven

Bah bah black sheep
Sacrificial lamb
Scapegoat, exile
Was always the plan
Serve, shh, don’t speak
Unless spoken to
Do as I say
Not as I do

Obey and someday you’ll be saved too

At the dead end
(I’ll keep wishing for the)
Dead end
(Chance to be free)

Dead end
(No where left to run)
Dead end
(From the damage done unto my soul)

What goes up
Must come down
Like the smile on a clown
When the makeup’s been wiped off
I just don’t understand
how it happened so fast
All the good turned to bad now I’m lost

Is it gravity, karma, or the law of attraction
Am I to blame for my loss
Did I bring this on us, am I paying the cost for
A misstep I made in the past

Or was this pain
Written in the stars
Like a birthmark
That turned into a

Scar
Come one and all
Beneath the highwire
And watch me fall
Is that whatcha came for, baby
If that’s whatcha came for
Step right up to the freakshow, baby
Step right up to the freakshow, baby

I don’t have anymore
Left to give, yeah I’m poor
‘Cause life flipped upside down
Now I’m broke
So I paint on a smile
And I fake it for awhile
But they’re not buyin’ what I’m sellin’
I’m a joke

Is it gravity, karma, or the law of attraction
The dragged my ass back to earth
‘Cause I was just so fucking happy
I don’t understand how this works

Was this pain
Written in the stars
Like a birthmark
That turned out to be a

Scar
Come one and all
Beneath the highwire
And watch me fall
Is that whatcha came for, baby
If that’s whatcha came for
Step right up to the freakshow, baby
Step right up to the freakshow, baby
Step right up to the freakshow, baby
Step right up
Gather one and all

What goes up
Must come down
Like the smile on a clown
When the makeup’s been wiped off
And I don’t understand
how it happened so fast
All the good turned to bad now I’m lost

Nothing here
Fits me anymore
But did it ever fit before
Did it fit before

I don’t look
Any different
But I am fundamentally changed
In ways
I could never turn back on
My sails have been rearranged
Headed in a new direction
At high speed
But fueled by the same breeze

Ooo, Ooo, Ooo

I’m out of fear
And I’m not tryin’ to get more
It took a lifetime to let go
Of what I don’t know or control

I’m out of fear
And I’m not tryin’ to get more
It took a lifetime to let go
Of what I don’t know or control

I run around in circles
But I’m running out of breath
I’ve held onto what

Hurts most
Am I a
Masochist

There’s danger in the distance
And I’m headed right toward it

At high speed
Am I a
Masochist

I can’t see clearly
The way ahead is thick with fog
But this breeze that pushes me along
Is strong

Am I a
A masochist
Am I a masochist
A masochist

“It’s a beauty this life,”
She said
Through porcelain lips stone cold
But brighter than the sun
And softer than a rosebud

You’re a beauty
As I’ve made you to be
Get lost in this wonderland of yours
Until you’re ready to return home to me

“It’s a beauty this life,” she said
Along with all of its miseries
You won’t find gold in an apple but a seed
To plant and grow your own tree

“It’s a beauty this life,” she said
Where you’re given the gift of choice
Where no one can force your hand
And no one can steal your voice
I made it so you may grow
In any way or not at all

You’re a beauty
As I’ve made you to be
Get lost in this wonderland of yours
Until you’re ready to return home to me

“It’s a beauty this life,”
she said
It’s yours, I gave it to you
Do with it what you choose

You’re a beauty
You’re a beauty

You’re a beauty
As I’ve made you to be
Get lost in this wonderland of yours